Jealousy.

I'm never satisfied with everything on earth but instead, jealous of every single thing that falls under the sun. Worst still, maybe over at miles away from the earth.
I don't understand why do people always get the things they wanted without any effort put in while dumb people like me are trying to struggle the hell just to gain something but to no avail. Yeah i can admit I'm dumb. I had never got anything right in the most critical moment in my life. Never.
No, not just in the most critical moment. In just simple stuffs, i've always failed to get things right.

I'm jealous over the slightest things. Be it relationships, results etc. Why didn't i get anything i wished for? Maybe my wishes are too tough for me to fulfill alone? Or maybe fate wants to go the completely different route i'm heading towards. If not, maybe it's because god wants to punish me of my sins in my previous life and thus brought it into my current life. Maybe i'm disliked by people. Maybe i'm just thinking too much, too much for my brain to take it. Maybe, maybe and maybe. These are just excuses.

Deep in my heart, i know the reason.

Jealousy is no more than feeling alone against smiling enemies.